So I did the fit test yesterday and I thought I mightg die. I finished so that was a big step. It's motivating seeing the minutes count down - you know how much you have left before you can collapse. I hadn't sweated (sp?) like that in forever. Since wrestling pracitce. The smell of the wrestling room came back, the sweat rolling of my face was back. I knew sweating like this, if I could keep it up, I had a real chance at shedding some pounds.
Yesterday at dinner, Sol and I decided I wouldn't drink until I go to Miami next Thursday, no problem. Today on my own I did day two, it was so hard I couldn't do it as fast and i couldnt even do everything the video was, but I finished, I have to find it within myself to push on becuase no one else is going to be there. Ultimatly its my job and whats inside me will work. I will see results. It won't be easy but I need to think of what I look like, I need to think of what I want to look like. i need to think of the consequences. I need to think of the disease I don't want, I need to think of what would happen if I got it. I need to keep on keepin on.
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Why do this?
For the last few years I have been consistently gaining weight. It's been kind of a life thing for me, when I was little I was the fat kid that everyone made fun of. Then I lost the weight during high school while/because of wrestling and life was good. Unfortunately I was so messed up mentally from my childhood that even when I looked anorexic I still thought I was fat. Some of you from high school may remember that. Now looking back at those pictures from high school, god, what I wouldn't give to look that good again! But you gotta work to get there and that is what I plan on doing. It takes work no one ever got anywhere from just wishing, except Dorthy from the Wizaed of Oz. It'll take my blood, sweat and tears - well hopefull no blood.
What do I mean by paying for my sins?
Sin #1 - Gluttony:
1. Eating before the time of meals in order to satisfy the palate.
2. Seeking delicacies and better quality of food to gratify the "vile sense of taste."
3. Seeking after sauces and seasonings for the enjoyment of the palate.
4. Exceeding the necessary amount of food.
5. Taking food with too much eagerness, even when eating the proper amount, and even if the food is not luxurious.
Okay, well obviously I have a food blog so I'm not going to stop all of those but above are some definitions defined by wikipedia. So Gluttony is the first sin I will work on.
Sin #2 - Sloth
Being physically or emotionally inactive. I don't take care of my body, I don't work out and my body tells me every day, I just don't do listen and I don't anything about it.
It's time. Diabetes runs in my family and I am starting to see how ugly of a disease it really is. I need to stop it before it starts and getting fit and active is the only way. That means sacrifices. Once I get to where I want to be I can indulge a little more but I have to get there first. So this is a pledge to myself. This blog's purpose is to serve as my motivation so that I can write what I think and feel. It is meant to be an outlet. It will most likely be very personal and hard to write at times but whatever it takes. It is time I take my life into my own hands and stop being so fucking lazy. Or I will die.
Insanity, Here-I-Come
What do I mean by paying for my sins?
Sin #1 - Gluttony:
1. Eating before the time of meals in order to satisfy the palate.
2. Seeking delicacies and better quality of food to gratify the "vile sense of taste."
3. Seeking after sauces and seasonings for the enjoyment of the palate.
4. Exceeding the necessary amount of food.
5. Taking food with too much eagerness, even when eating the proper amount, and even if the food is not luxurious.
Okay, well obviously I have a food blog so I'm not going to stop all of those but above are some definitions defined by wikipedia. So Gluttony is the first sin I will work on.
Sin #2 - Sloth
Being physically or emotionally inactive. I don't take care of my body, I don't work out and my body tells me every day, I just don't do listen and I don't anything about it.
It's time. Diabetes runs in my family and I am starting to see how ugly of a disease it really is. I need to stop it before it starts and getting fit and active is the only way. That means sacrifices. Once I get to where I want to be I can indulge a little more but I have to get there first. So this is a pledge to myself. This blog's purpose is to serve as my motivation so that I can write what I think and feel. It is meant to be an outlet. It will most likely be very personal and hard to write at times but whatever it takes. It is time I take my life into my own hands and stop being so fucking lazy. Or I will die.
Insanity, Here-I-Come
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